I’m still here

I’m hanging in there but I’m still here. We still don’t have wifi. I still don’t have a job. So I’m attempting to hustle with freelance modeling and sending out applications when I can get myself out the door to the library. I’ve done a couple of free shoots, though I’m really hoping to find…

standstill

Healing is hard. There’s absolutely nothing fun about healing. It’s painful, it’s messy. It fucks you all the way up. You have to get through the shittiest of shit before you’re free. That’s what makes it so hard. Just when you’re feeling good and productive and ready to tackle the day again, you have to…

I don’t really think I’m all that okay

I feel like I’ve been kind of teetering on this edge for almost a week now. I was a mess the day I broke up with him. Could barely keep myself from crying. But after I ended that last call, I just sealed it away. Now I feel I’m settling into a deep depression. I…